I get it now

So basically I have never been one for much self discipline. I have never been one for self motivation either. The older I get the more and more I realize I want to be self disciplined and self motivated, the more I also figure out that I kinda am. When I make a decision, I can generally stick to it. It's a mental thing, all I have to do is remind myself that I made a goal and I'm not going to let myself down. It works. Well I had a conversation the other night with Bryce about whether or not we were the kind of people who could push themselves to physically get sick by working out. I said I didn't think I was because, I hate throwing up first of all, and second of all, I'm just not a big fan of pushing my body that far. Well, I was wrong. I have yet to throw up, but something has definitely snapped inside of me. The other night I pushed myself well over what I thought I was capable of and pushed past the point where I wanted to stop on the treadmill. Victory #1! 

Let's talk about spinning class for half a second. That class is enough to kill anyone! Half way through I'm feeling pretty fatigued, I don't have my whole heart into it. I want to, but it's just kinda hard to push myself at this point. That's when the song changed to "Stronger" by Kelly Clarkson came on. I don't know what it was but something in this song made me want to push myself. So I did, I went at it hard, way past the point of my legs burning and sweat dripping all down my face and back. I was loving it! I didn't want this for anyone but me. I was the one cheating myself if I didn't give it all I had. It didn't hurt that Lora was right beside me pushing herself just as hard. She's an inspiration in and of herself ladies and gentlemen. I'd like to take this time to publicly thank her for the opportunity and her knowledge of the human body that has brought about this change. You're great Lora Sue! 

As you enjoy this song, I want you to picture sprinting through all of the chorus. Quite effective right?!

My Analysis of The Vow

First of all, let's establish something. I'm a crier. I don't care if it's a sports movie, a sappy movie, a surprise reunion, or even that bloody Wal-Mart commercial where the soldier Mom comes home from war just in time for Christmas, I'm going to cry. Let's get real here people. After I watched Titanic, I sobbed for an hour. An hour! I didn't have any idea what love was at that point, but I was sure those people would never recover from the loss of it. The Vow was good. Was it a good idea to go on Valentine's Day when I had already had a good pre-game pity party for my well established singledom? Probably not. Either way, we went. I'm not going to give anything away in this post, no worries for those of you who haven't seen it. Well, at least, not anything that isn't already given away in the trailer. Sometimes, I have found recently, that certain movies strike different cords in me and bother me in ways that I didn't expect. I liked The Vow. I think it is a totally plausible storyline (obviously since it's based on a true story). What I didn't like was the feeling of frustration for unrequited love that he felt the whole time. It's an all too familiar feeling for me and for some reason bothers me more now than it ever did when I was living through it. The fight for love from one's spouse is a hopeless feeling and I didn't like feeling that throughout the movie. Granted, it's not her fault, she doesn't remember. Either way, totally depressing. Can we talk about good 'ole Leo for a second though. He's so patient with her and he loves her with a love that is total and all encompassing. I love his character and how he just wants her to be happy despite everything he is feeling. I love his gentleness. I love how he's willing to drop everything to make her fall in love with him again. So precious. If only life were always that simple and you could find that one person who will love you totally and completely that way. Sometimes I have a hard time with movies like that because all they do is make you reflect on the love you don't have or worse the love you've lost. So here's a question, is it better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all? Anymore I can't decide but most days I'm leaning towards, no. No it's not. 

Shout out to Shelbs

I wish I could make you guys understand just how much i love this girl.

She...
kicks me in the butt constantly and gets me out there doing what I actually want to be doing.
This girl is a ball of pure energy, all the fetching time. This results in me being energized just by coming home. Let me just share with you guys a few of our adventures lately. We went snowboarding, very last minute decision. I'm terrible, and I do mean horrible. I would like to improve and I felt like I did a lot better this year than last year. I have the bruised body and ego to prove that I improved just a fraction from last year. A fact that I'm sure would make JPed proud.
Here's how it went on the hill. At one point, Shelby decided she needed to learn to ride her board toe side. This resulted in her barreling down the mountain at an uncontrollable speed towards little old me who was gliding along at my safe controlled pace. I had very little time to react when I heard her scream, "Danielle, get out of the way!" Right, like that was going to happen when she was right behind me. So we crashed, and we crashed hard. She basically took out my feet, Her board took out my arm specifically, I ended up behind her, she ended up in front of me, my board was pointed towards the top of the mountain and we both basically just laid there groaning and laughing. I'm sure the people on the ski lift above got quite a show. You are welcome. Fast forward to the next time down. I'm riding toe side this time and somehow fall on my butt. Lucky for me, I have so much momentum that I end up on my front side. I had managed to do a complete somersault down the mountain. Beauty and grace, it's what I'm full of. I"m sure the people above me enjoyed that as well. You are welcome again.
All in all, it was a fantastic day. We're going snowtubing this Friday. Let's see what shenanigans we can get into. It's how we do. :)