Custom Made Life

Clearly, I've gone through some self-reflection lately. Sometimes that can get dangerous but other times it can be a great learning tool. I bought this book recently by none other than the fabulously amazing Sheri Dew entitled God Wants a Powerful People. I hadn't even gotten through the introduction, which is about a page long, when a very important truth hit me like a ton of bricks. In it she says "He (talking about the Holy Ghost) will reveal and translate truths in such a way that you can hear them, understand them, and apply them". I love this so much. Sometimes, I tend to forget just how well my Savior knows me personally. I also forget how custom made to me my trials, strengths, weaknesses, and my communications with him are. I got to thinking about what a great blessing, that not only the Lord but also the Holy Ghost is. How well he knows me. That he knows and cares enough to speak to me in such a way that I understand. I do not learn the same way someone else learns, and He takes that into account. It is no wonder that we are constantly urged not to judge ourselves based on other people's standards because they could not do what we do. They have the trials they have for the purpose of their life. I have had some pretty rough trials in my life and I now know what I am capable of handling. I know I'm a very strong person and sometimes I'm afraid of just what I am capable of. I always think it couldn't possibly get any worse. Invariably, it can and it will. However, just as much as the Lord is aware of what trials we need, he is also acutely aware of what succoring we will need to get us through these same trials. It is through these rough times that I have felt his presence in a very real way and have discovered that his love is all encompassing and knows no bounds. He knows exactly what I need in a moment of weakness and knows exactly what I need to comfort me in that tender time. I am so grateful for my Savior and for the Gospel and the blessings and assurance that it is in my life. I have lived as though I didn't know it was true and it was the most difficult climb back I have ever had to make. Some days, I feel so overwhelmed that the enduring to the end part seems like the greatest trial of all. Those are the days, I turn it over to the Lord and just let him know, I can't do it anymore. It seems like on my knees, confessing to him that I'm finished, that one more trial would surely break me, that is when he comforts me and I know that it's not over until I'm by his side. I have great faith that the Lord is preparing me for something. I'm not sure what it is and I'm not sure what else he wants me to do or go through to get there. But, I'll do it. I know I can do it. I need to learn to trust in the Lord and know that he does know me personally. He uses the Holy Ghost to teach me the things he wants me to know. For that I am grateful.

I hope this doesn't sound preachy. I just wanted to get this all down on........cyber paper?